Cannot rid the mental aspects of my bulimia.?

I can't believe you've managed to achieve what you have without psychiatric support. You are doing very well but you really need to deal with the underlying reasons for your eating disorder. If you can, go to see another doctor and say you need to see a therapist. I am 33 now and have been in recovery for few years after constant relapsing into anorexia and bulimia during my late teens and twenties. I have to say that my body image is the first thing that goes when i feel bad and I still have urges to starve myself sometimes or make myself sick. I too compare myself to people who are bigger than me but think I look worse. I don't give into those urges though because u have the tools that I've learned from years of intensive therapy. I'm sorry your doctor was so unhelpful. He probably attended a one hour lecture on eating disorders as part of his training. Good luck with finding help. When you think about restricting your food, remind yourself that you've been down that road before and it didn't work out very well. X