What's my next step??? :/?

I've finished college which means my counselling has stopped :/ I saw my 2 counsellors for an eating disorder, and was weighed at every session, my counsellor was really upset that I had finished college because they are scared that I will relapse :/ what's my next step? I am scared that I will relapse, we looked back at the previous notes that they made from all the sessions and my weight had increased that then dropped again :/ what should I do? I was really hoping to make them proud by the time I left and now I feel like they feel I wasted their time :/